It's hard for me to reveal myself in a blog...But I need a place to be able to do that...When I was working through some family problems, I went to a counselor for a little while. She wanted me to journal. I had no idea how to put my feelings down on paper. I had no idea where to start. I would sit for long periods of time having no clue what to write. I ended up giving up trying to journal. I think it was because it was going to open up some old wounds and old stuff I didn't want to go back to. It was buried, and I was going to leave it there.....
But I really need a place where I can write and talk more openly so my girls learn lots more about me. They know me as "Mom", and I want them to know me better as a person, as an adult. When my mom passed away in 2008, I realized I really didn't know all that much about her other than her in her role as my mom. What did she really think about things? She kept a LOT to herself. Hm-m-m-m, guess that's where I get that from! I'm going to try and write a little more personal stuff in this blog from here on out.
I'm going to give myself little writing journaling prompts now and then to get myself going...I will still write about my crafts, but as my sister is battling cancer and not creating along with me, I think I would like to just have a place to "talk" for now. I do like to write....and maybe things will reveal themselves as I go along, who knows? And with this blog, I'm not going to worry about followers, or who's reading, or who decides not to...
I'm just going to be me....warts and all.....Not sure about photos just yet...might have to practice getting myself in front of the camera more. Not an easy thing to do.
Where did the week go? It went fast....I went bike riding for twelve miles TWICE in one week. I love my new bike, I really do. It's a Trek 7300, last year's model. It's lighter and fun to shift gears. It gives me JOY to ride it. I would rather ride my bike than walk around the mall or the neighborhood any day. I like to FLY on my bike...12-15 miles an hour...I'm finally getting the hang of the gears and starting to shift according to how it feels, and not by looking at the numbers...Woo-hoo! Watch out! Here I come!
Two crafty sisters, Lyle and Jeannie, wanting to remember their mom, Millie, who gave them their creative genes...A little about crafts, a lot about living life...Jeannie lives in SW Florida, Lyle lives in Michigan. Although miles apart in distance, we are a lot alike in spirit and love, we love to create things! Lyle has taken a back seat at the moment in the crafting department, but she'll be back one of these days!
Sounds like a good idea - just don't put anything in a post that you wouldn't want on the front page of the New York Times. (That's what my mom used to say.) I'm glad you're enjoying your bike - its good exercise and a great way to get away from it all. :)
ReplyDeleteJeannie,
ReplyDeleteI was just playing catch up on some blog reading and was totally dismayed to learn of the return of your sister's cancer. I am so sorry for both of you. I'm not sure which it is harder for.....the one who has the cancer or the ones who love the one with cancer. As a survivor, having watched the ones who loved me, I am still not sure!
You have a family out here, too! Don't forget that. Use the bicycle to blow the fears and tears from your mind and the blog to put a voice to the rest. In the meanwhile, use your crafts to keep your hands busy (and productive!) I'm sure Lyle will adore the hats!!
Feel the prayers and positive thoughts heading your (and Lyle's) way!!
Hugs,
Terry R